This time the weight is 23 lbs and 31 inches which calculates into a "who in the WIDE WORLD knows."
The updates have his middle name spelled incorrectly, which I promptly emailed our cordinator requesting that she look into that. That could SPELL DISASTER if there are two different spellings of our son's name being used.
I suppose I should have some good happy feelings. Happy he's well. Happy he has the appearance of health. Happy that he's not in a cast. Happy that he's safe. And I'm all of those things, somewhere inside. Maybe even happy that he doesn't look happy....maybe that he would prefer to be home.
But for some reason, all I feel right now is disgusted. Disgusted with it all. Has it not been long enough? Absolutely NO update on our file. I need someone to throw me a life-line right now. I feel like I'm drowning in a deep dark hole. How long must I wait?
Note to self....try not to allow yourself to think you may be further in this process than you are. It only spells heartache when you're not.
7 comments:
Cute boy!!! May the Lord strengthen you with His peace and grace and go before you to bring Joshua into your arms exactly as He has ordained!
Phil 4:8
Finally, brethren, whatever is true, whatever is honorable, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is of good repute, if there is any excellence and if ANYTHING be worth of PRAISE, DWELL on these things.
I so wish I could hug you! It is a difficult thing beyond anything someone not in the same shoes could understand to be seperated from your child and not know when they will come home to you. A heartache unlike any other!
Joshua looks healthy and beautiful! Love you!
Keep hanging on!!
So sorry you're having a hard time sweetie. Just keep hanging in there. It's really all you CAN do, right? Just hold tight and pray like mad?
He's handsome as ever...just wanna kiss him all up *smooch*
I am right there with you....just SO tired of this waiting....there are just no good words to describe the pain. Praying. May the blessings be abundant when they finally do come....
I was going to read your blog earlier, but didn't and now I know why. I just watched a Christian program I had DVR'd and it spoke to me exactly what I should say to you.
Always be joyful. Never stop praying. Be thankful in all circumstances, for this is God’s will for you who belong to Christ Jesus. Do not stifle the Holy Spirit.
1 Thessalonians 5:16-19
Father God,
I ask you to wrap your loving arms around this family. Thank you God that you are working right now on this circumstance. I pray that the enemies voice would not be heard when he whispers doubt into this situation. Thank you for your protection of Joshua.
In Jesus Name,
Amen
Oh, poor thing, it really is heart breaking. I am really looking forward to seeing his personality in the light of all his pictures.
Kisses on his sweet little head. =)
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